Good Evening Luvs.
I have had this little name that I called myself ever since I started dating/having bf's and my friends can confirm its validity. Poison. One may ask why I would call myself that and if you took a sneak peak into my past relationships you would see that I pretty much was the definition. I have these boys and they end up self destructing, with me at the top of the blame list. I say boys because I honestly believe that if they were men mentally, somethings would never happen. I've had my share of " WTF" moments in relationships and supposed friendships. From the will you marry me's to the I can't live with out you's(literally). With my last bf I changed my ways. I let go of something that had a whole on me for 4 years and decided to move from something that was unhealthy emotionally. I was blind to say the least. Glad thats over, smh.
More recently I have let that little name go. I realized I was letting them blame me for things that I had no control over. I've been blamed for guys going crazy at the age of 20...no...negative...wrong. I really do believe they were crazy before they meet me. To every action, there is a reaction. Your reaction is your personal choice. I no longer have time for games. At my age people may think I am playing games because I don't make a decision that they want or I have a different logic then they do. Most of the time I know exactly what I want, its just uncertainty that hinders me. I have to think about whether or not what I want is what God intends for me to have. Still working on making sure my plans are alined with God's...not yours. I have come to a point in my life where I realize that there are few things, I mean very little, that are more important than my happiness. Life is too short not to enjoy it. So am I still poison??...NO ;-)
Remember...
Change is inevitable.
