Dreaming Wishing that you were lying next to me.
Hoping Praying that you see what we are meant to be.
Thinking Feeling That you might just be the one
Counting Waiting until I see you but the seconds are long
Doubting Questioning because its too good to be true
Good Evening Luvs.
I have had this little name that I called myself ever since I started dating/having bf's and my friends can confirm its validity. Poison. One may ask why I would call myself that and if you took a sneak peak into my past relationships you would see that I pretty much was the definition. I have these boys and they end up self destructing, with me at the top of the blame list. I say boys because I honestly believe that if they were men mentally, somethings would never happen. I've had my share of " WTF" moments in relationships and supposed friendships. From the will you marry me's to the I can't live with out you's(literally). With my last bf I changed my ways. I let go of something that had a whole on me for 4 years and decided to move from something that was unhealthy emotionally. I was blind to say the least. Glad thats over, smh.
More recently I have let that little name go. I realized I was letting them blame me for things that I had no control over. I've been blamed for guys going crazy at the age of 20...no...negative...wrong. I really do believe they were crazy before they meet me. To every action, there is a reaction. Your reaction is your personal choice. I no longer have time for games. At my age people may think I am playing games because I don't make a decision that they want or I have a different logic then they do. Most of the time I know exactly what I want, its just uncertainty that hinders me. I have to think about whether or not what I want is what God intends for me to have. Still working on making sure my plans are alined with God's...not yours. I have come to a point in my life where I realize that there are few things, I mean very little, that are more important than my happiness. Life is too short not to enjoy it. So am I still poison??...NO ;-)
Remember...
Change is inevitable.
Writing Trying to get through to you
Blushing Smiling because of the words you say
Wondering Asking how do you make me feel this way
Believing Knowing you can see through to my soul
Wanting Yearning for you to use what you know
now I'm going to sleep...
Monday, October 11, 2010
Professionally speaking...
I have decided to try and take my financial/professional success into my own hands. One could ask..."When was it ever not in my hands?" Well the answer to that is all my life. We go through college to try and find these jobs where our bosses pay us what they think we are worth. Well, I'm worth more than any of what these entry level jobs are willing to pay...Hell, I'm college educated and still couldn't find a job until 3 weeks ago. Even with my current job its not what I want to do, but hey it will do for now. Having a job is better then not having a job.
Lately I've been thinking that unorganized entrepreneurs are drawn to me. These people want to hire me because they sense that I am organized and professional and that I can help them out. I understand that they recognize my potential but most older people are too stuck in their ways to actually let me help them. I never realized how professional I am until recently. When running a business there are some things that you do and don't do... apparently the people that I deal with didn't get that memo. maybe I should do a business etiquette blog one day..hmm
On another note I was presented with an opportunity to be my own boss, control my own income, and work with whomever however I want. So I'm going to try it out. There are a lot of opportunities out there like this one but they aren't for everybody. As for me, its going well so far. So I have this opportunity as well as another job. So things are looking up for me. I'm tired of not having the income that I desire so I'm doing something about it. I won't say exactly what the opportunity is on this blog but if you really want t know...just ask! I will update you all on my success story at a later date!
Here's to a life of boring suits and long meetings!!!!!![sarcasm]
Lately I've been thinking that unorganized entrepreneurs are drawn to me. These people want to hire me because they sense that I am organized and professional and that I can help them out. I understand that they recognize my potential but most older people are too stuck in their ways to actually let me help them. I never realized how professional I am until recently. When running a business there are some things that you do and don't do... apparently the people that I deal with didn't get that memo. maybe I should do a business etiquette blog one day..hmm
On another note I was presented with an opportunity to be my own boss, control my own income, and work with whomever however I want. So I'm going to try it out. There are a lot of opportunities out there like this one but they aren't for everybody. As for me, its going well so far. So I have this opportunity as well as another job. So things are looking up for me. I'm tired of not having the income that I desire so I'm doing something about it. I won't say exactly what the opportunity is on this blog but if you really want t know...just ask! I will update you all on my success story at a later date!
Here's to a life of boring suits and long meetings!!!!!![sarcasm]
Monday, July 19, 2010
That girl is POISON....
Good Evening Luvs.
I have had this little name that I called myself ever since I started dating/having bf's and my friends can confirm its validity. Poison. One may ask why I would call myself that and if you took a sneak peak into my past relationships you would see that I pretty much was the definition. I have these boys and they end up self destructing, with me at the top of the blame list. I say boys because I honestly believe that if they were men mentally, somethings would never happen. I've had my share of " WTF" moments in relationships and supposed friendships. From the will you marry me's to the I can't live with out you's(literally). With my last bf I changed my ways. I let go of something that had a whole on me for 4 years and decided to move from something that was unhealthy emotionally. I was blind to say the least. Glad thats over, smh.
More recently I have let that little name go. I realized I was letting them blame me for things that I had no control over. I've been blamed for guys going crazy at the age of 20...no...negative...wrong. I really do believe they were crazy before they meet me. To every action, there is a reaction. Your reaction is your personal choice. I no longer have time for games. At my age people may think I am playing games because I don't make a decision that they want or I have a different logic then they do. Most of the time I know exactly what I want, its just uncertainty that hinders me. I have to think about whether or not what I want is what God intends for me to have. Still working on making sure my plans are alined with God's...not yours. I have come to a point in my life where I realize that there are few things, I mean very little, that are more important than my happiness. Life is too short not to enjoy it. So am I still poison??...NO ;-)
Remember...
Change is inevitable.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
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So, its been a minute since I've blogged. Here goes nothing. I'm typing with no particular subject in mind just the longing to blog, its healthy[lol]. So I have a recent addiction to twitter and this is because of recent personal issues combined with boredom. I no longer go on facebook unless I am extra bored which is about once a week. Twitter reminds me of the days when I first joined facebook, u know when it was simple. No children or random aunts and uncles requesting to be friends with me. The good life. Now I have to worry about offending one of my elders or something and promoters send entirely to many messages.
Well thats enough of complaining about facebook. Here is some recent updates about my life. I've graduated from college. BA in Journalism. No job. Back at home with the parentals. #fml. No, j/k Im not giving up just yet. God isn't done with me, I just have to be patient. I am still very optimistic about my future. Life is not what I thought it would have been after graduation but not as bad as it could be. So i will continue to blog at a later date, I just have to think of a subject. Thats all for now. *MUAH
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